I found this girl on the web, and I can't believe her legs....

Evelina Mambetova I think is her name.

Anyway, I took a body shot of myself and then my camera battery died and so I'll post it tomorrow after I have recharged it. Blah.....I can't believe her legs lol.... I won't want to post the picture of myself now because it will be the most disappointing contrast to these photos......

I know that my body structure and height would never allow me to look like this, just as Mary-Kate Olsen, for instance, at her absolute thinnest, could never possibly, simply because she has shorter legs, but wider hips, or something, you know what I mean. It has nothing to do with fat. That is a sad reality, because there was once a time when I thought that while having lost tons of weight, yet still not looking like that, could only mean that I simply needed to ....lose more weight. It's a rather illogical existence.

Regardless, I found the pictures somewhat astounding and they inspire me nonetheless. Attainable or not, it reminds me that thin looks so much better than...me....

I couldn't sleep all night so far. It's terrible....I have an appointment and I'm going to be so horribly sleep deprived with raw nerves, gritty eyes and a burning stomach. That is the inevitable result of sleep deprivation for me. I don't understand why my stomach freaks out from it. Drives me nuts. Neither eating, nor fasting relieves the condition, but I have a tendency to eat, convinced that some substance in the appealing food item at that moment will mimic the effects of a good night's sleep. Absurdities like this....