Well, last night I couldn't sleep. Woke up, binged on.....
This is embarrassing. Don't ask me why. But I actually binged on healthy food. Whole wheat chipotle wraps with kidney beans, lettuce, salsa, onion, red pepper, some other veggies I'm too dull to think of right now, and of course a bit of cheese.
Absolutely binged. And then purged it.
I HATE IT when I purge healthy food. Maybe the cheese sent me over the edge, the thought of it got a bit obsessive....but seriously, it's such a freaking waste lol....ARGH.... I feel genuinely guilty about that. Not about doing something harmful or screwed up like purging, but about purging healthy food. Sounds like my logic.
Ahhh oh well, moving on...as always..........

Now for the GOOD news.... Somehow after all that (not to mention drinking a ton of water, so I know it's not dehydration) I was down to 163 lbs today. I didn't weigh myself til after suppertime (which I didn't eat) but i was 163, which is 2 pounds less than the last weigh...
Three pounds total.
Now when I am at a heavier weight and lose, since it is easier, and you hold more water, etc at this size, and all that, I consider the first 5 pounds false weight. Weight that comes off because less material is moving through your system, your body lets go of some excess water, all that jazz.
Not 'real weight' lol....
But just like any real pound of flesh, it must come off. If that isn't coming off, there is a slim chance I'm losing weight. So it's a great sign.

And shit....I forgot a body shot again....
I'm going to come back later tonight and do that I think. I have to run rather urgently at the moment. Plus I like an excuse to come back and write more I think lol.