I got SO freaking sick with this ear infection. I haven't had an ear infection since I was sooo little and it killed. It started with this freaky pain in my mouth actually, and then later made itself clear that it was stemming from my ear. And I couldn't chew anything. And then my ear started ringing and I kept hearing sloshing noises when I'd move my jaw, which was absolutely disgusting. So, yeah, that's why I missed a day or two posting or I dunno how much time has passed actually. On the bright side of it all, I basically took shitloads of supplements, immune boosters and meds, slept for almost 24 hours at a time, and I am already feeling much much better, aside from the chills/fever a tad still. And dizzy as shit lol
Oh wait, on the brighter side, I haven't eaten really....anything? At all.....
I had a bowl of chili the night before, in an effort to down garlic, cayenne and herbal stuff that is good for heating up your blood and fighting infection, and then I pretty much haven't even been conscious since then lol
I haven't weighed myself just because I have such horrid chills I dont' find it worth the effort to take off all 4 thousand pounds of clothing I have on to do it...whatevers tho.

So, here's the other thing. My mom tells me the other day that she wants to go to my cousin's baby shower. (To see all her family members too, and they live quite far away...) I didn't think she would, having work and all that going on. But anyway, I saw who all was invited and omg I don't want to be me, or fat, around half her friends, and even some of my relatives. Which is shallow and I shouldn't give a damn, but I really need motivation of any kind ANYWAY right now haha.....
And the shower is in 10 days... So actually, I just noticed while I was on the phone earlier this evening, this pair of jeans I have that fit me quite long ago when I was 150 lbs. (and obviously did not stay there. boo. ) I had dug them out the other day and then flung them up on my shelf to figure out which ones they were later. And then today it occurred to me which jeans they were. And that I can wear those jeans, 10 pounds from now. And if I fucking cared enough, that could, really really truly COULD be in 10 DAYS from now.....
If I really actually busted my ass. I've done 15 pounds in a week, 165 down to 150 actually. But that was under some extreme conditions that I don't forsee myself putting the effort into. (Let alone, maybe it's not even possible for me anymore).
I think 10 is enough to ask.
So I dunno if I'm actually down to 160 or not, but regardless, when I weigh myself tomorrow, and see what I am, I expect the scale to say 10 pounds less than that, in 10 days. Period.
That is one of my projects for now I've decided.

Ummmm......in other news, I got the interveiw for the job I was talking about applying for and all that crazy stuff, the other day.....I'm very excited about that lol...and nervous. I haven't had a job in about 5 months....
I feel so unprepared and socially idiotic and weak for this...bleh
But oh well, I gotta try something, somewhere, someday....